My ,My, my has it been a long time...... as usual my life is a never ending story to which I give god all the Glory. I am definitely on an emotional roller coaster right now mentally, physically and emotionally.

Get up off me tearful lonelies. Daily I battle flesh. Longing for cold shoulders to shed my hot tears on. Under duress, seems all could care less about my stress. In the arms of many I rest only to be kissed and caressed. Never getting to the bottom the issues that go unaddressed.. I don't deserve this!! I am a being of importance. How I long to speak with just one of my mothers or wish I had a big brother or sister i could go to. Lord I'm thankful I got You. Somedays I feel like the queen I am and others I feel like a peasant which is not my inner reflection.It doesn't matter how people treat me as long as I give you the glory. 6 people called me today needing a joy boost. draining me of my self motivation leaving me displacent and discombobulated. I just gotta make it. I'm really tired today. I am literally a maid soon to be made.

Here come the lonelies again. Jesus!! I want a real God fearing man, who understands.....understanding. Who is free and excepts me for me and makes me want to strive to be more than what I can be. We can agree to disagree. One who is free like me. Like in the beginning with Adam and Eve,before the tree.

OkAY !!! I'm done crying....... I feel much better.