Blue Watermelon

OOOOkkkk sooo uhhhmmmmm my first Paris inspired make up tutoral.......Im feeling like Ki Ki's make up tutorial.......If you have a sense of humor its a must see!!! all I gotta say is " I got Green" LMBO gotta love my niece Quish Quish cause she always remind me that I'm out the box. I'm so glad she joined us for church this morning...........but let me get to the finish before it gets to late....Exodus Exodus.......I gotts to study Exodus......Man I really wish i would have wrote the scripture down this morning.......lets seee Exodus 8:5 uuuggghhhhhh I can't remember right now but it will come to me.......it doesn't matter I'm gonna read it all any way........well gotta go Exodus got something I gotta know......... soooooo I went to sleep and didn't study sham on me but I'm on it today....... I'm so greatful my birthday is just a few days away. and what better way to celebrate than the Black Heratage Ball.... I wish more people from generation and my area would attend. Lord knows I sure appreciate the help in my college years.........tear. 

Girl Interrupted....................................

Family family family........ let me sit back take a deep breathe inhale alllllllll the good.... exhale the bad....." In my niece Ivy lynns voice" " Satan" Go back ! Go Back! Go Back to the woods......You team aint got no spirit and you coach is no good!!!! we got them cheerleader genes. Thank you Lord for your blessings up on my family. We are all family descendants of a King......I wonder how long it took me to understand and grasp that hhmmmmmmmmmmmmm..................let me thank about that,,,,,mmmkkkk  uh huh... I see...  I remember I wrote in this one piece . Sometimes I don't understand my understanding. I don't even understand why I must understand.... but i understand............Let me say it again........Sometimes i don't understand my understanding but I understand, actually I overstand. I overstand my standing  I over stand on his word. Gods holy word. I come before him humble daily ....people just don't know what I mighta.... woulda..... coulda..... shoulda ............Did I say it or relay it correctly.....Heavenly father thank you for your help down here.....thank you for more than.....Thank ya fo them YAMPS.......some of yall don't know nothin bout that......... It take my girl Tira to get into all that.......The whole family in southwind Chicken,Cabbage,corn bread and candy yams. Them yamps bought dat......Whatcha know about dat.......let me stop before I bust into a rap. I've gotten all off track. ......Mannnnn I was in a competition a few weeks back  so I could put a few extra bucks in my pocket to help with daily struggles these apples I juggle daily.....keep the doctor away another bill to pay. So any way me and my left  hand man walk up in the establishment and Soon .....well let me just say this....... I walk with confidence....Hips of intimidation....mind stay racin.....dream chasin......like I was sayin we walked straight in and to make a long story end . did a modern day sit in well I'll say SING in.....A caucasan man tried to say my Kind wasn't welcomed. His exact words were Nigger yall lost......Called me a Nigger B*tch.........My Lord he was ignorant ............had the nerve............. with out waistin my words on that situation. I'm glad he got thrown out and I was able to share my talent....and win that inning. to God be the glory cause back in the day I might not have lived to tell the story. I just wanna get that off my chest I may or may not fill in the rest. Less see what else. O yeah I love my president I'm yellin OBAMAAAAaaaa!!!!!Thank you for the Yamps!.............................................................Moving right along its some more..... I was talking to my cuzin Quala LMBBO......Laughing Both my Bunns Off and I was telling her I wonder what  the dudes were thinkin when they passed out the two fish and five loaves of bread. OOOOooooooooo oooooooooooo its so good . I gotta go back and read it.....John 6:5......But any way I'm just so tickled . We know one of the disciples where thinkin " yeah we gettin down to the last piece I know this next piece my piece .......Oh ok another piece....Yeah we gettin down to the last piece for the tenth time......we gettin down to the one hundreth time.....ok we gettin down to the last piece the 500th time.....we gettin down to the last piece .......Im shooooooo ready for my piece Jesus....another disciple said " this guy is amazing. I know I shall follow him till my days end.....well we were just laughing about the disciple saying he was hungry even tho God was working a miracle......im still tickled...................................................................................................................Sorry for the long pauseI went to sleep and I must say I woke up this sunday Morning!!!!!!! Thank ya JESUS!!!! I woke up and I'm still woke........... yall just don't know.......Thank ya Lord for being woke and I'm not just talkin about my eyes I'm talkin about my mind.................my body , my soul, my sense of being ........nothin but JESUS.

Supper D Dupper

Listen while u read

Hello family......I know its been a long time and believe me I got alot on my mind.....God never sleeps nor slumbers. With that being said. In the words of my brother Lo "aint nan made me"..... but G....O...D. I humble appreciate those who paved the way. but again I say "aint nan made me".  but HE. Before I was born he knew me...............and to this day sees write thru me and writes through me. and keep on using me......Pause for a song......." you just keep on using meeeeeeee until you use me up!!" thats that old school...... Ok I got that out I can get to what I wanna talk about and whats been going on. God is so super d dupper hmmmm ok thats a lil lame of me or is it ....I mean he is it " Super D Dupper" . I remember a month ago God told me to quit my job and I'm like. "Now Lord you know I'm to old to be doin something like that"      and we went tit for tat.....lol and he said who got you that pay check? Who made the tree that made the paper checks you cash? Who made the paper cash? LOL well obedience is better than sacrifice. And I love my new job. that I didn't even look for. While I was sleep and slumbering. He is always awake pondering and waiting patiently to teach me patience. Which I tend to think I have alot of until he pours out some more. Galore ...did I spell that right. I aint spell checkin tonight according to Modern English. I'm not writing right anyway.

Moving right along I haven't written in so long cause......I finally stop mourning for selfish reasons starting with my daddy .....but ending with me and this life I'm leading. Why do I want to be famous and sing and share all the other gifts God gave me? It frees me...but what about the people who are hearing? Why are they listening? My soul cries when I close my eyes and step out on the stage that I create daily when I sing praise to the one who made me... And thats what I'll do the rest of my life if I stayed where I am right now. I mean really.... everything he promised! I already got it! and what I have Lord I give it to you and to all you desire for me to give it too. whew....ok...fam I'm cool.......yall just don't know how many emotions I been thru in this short therapy session...aint tha lord a blessin! I gotta go get me some Rest and Rececitation....

A rock stuck in a hard place or stuck between a rock and a hard place......Im a rock!

Bigggggggggggggg hug!!!!!!! Have I missed therapy.....some stuff ...to believe....you gotta see....I'm just sayin.. God your so amazing!!! you properest a table in the midst of my enemies......Deuteronomy 3 just came to me.... I'm about to pause and read it...........................................................................that was along pause on this side of the computer any way fam u should read it if you get time.....sometimes knowledge can be wonderfully over whelming and liberating......liberating - showing freedom of social conventions or traditional ideas.........Woah!!! there is more....definition 2 ( a place or people) freed of enemy occupation...occupation- a persons usual or principal work or business ....Eph 6:12 for we wrestle not against flesh and blood, but against (principalities), powers rulers of darkness of this world, and spiritual wickedness in high places. principalities- territory ruled by a prince.....Who is the prince of this world? John 14:30 well that's enough about that,,(in my Forrest Gump voice) 

I had a conversation with my grandma Mary. she said " a house is bigger than a mansion, I don't need no mansion baby!" In my fathers house are many mansions. John 14:2 tahhhdaah..... awwwwh man !!! I must go back to my starting topic and talk about Joshua....which Deuteronomy lead me to read......ohhh please oh please family read it.....if your like me you've read it before but every time you read the word of God it has new meaning.... I'm even gone look up the song, as a child I use to sing.....We shout victory.....singing......as the walls come tumbling down. My mother used to dance her.....you know what off to the song don't wait till the battle is over shout NOW!!!! TiMori are you shouting???? gotta go handle my responsibilities luv ya family!!

I opened my mouth.....

I know its been a minute fam....... but I have so much and I mean so much to talk about.........SMH<PRAISE GOD> Lucifer you lying ass, dirty, low down, decitful, viscous, stank, none power, wish you could, never would,can't! aint! won't!, never gonna have, dominion and power over my GOD!!!! Matter fact Im gone pause and go back to the begining of the sentence and say PRAISE GOD!! I'm writing the vision and making it plain... its nothin....I'm chuckling.... lol..... Whrew in the words of my Father Im feeling a little preachie....LMBO....... Breathe innnnn..... Breathe out, but thats how I had to start off this therapy session..... like that!........"thought to self!!!" live life like your under attack!!!! self said "Why you say dat!" Ughhh duhhhh put on the whole armor of GOD!!!! hhhhmmmmm, lets see. the breast plate of rightousness,Belt of truth buckled around my wrist, the helmet of peace,..... I mean the gospel of peace.... the helmet of salvation, the SWORD of the spirit and the shield of faith......wow! I believe I learned all of these in kindergarten......yep I sure did! I wonder how many children know this in kindergarten now who aren't in private school and don't grow up in church or do grow up in church. IJS this armor is very important......well moving right along I gotta talk about what happened at work...... I was vacuuming the floor just singing to my self and worshiping before we open up........while my boss was over in the corner behind the register burning incense  and praying to uhhhhh I don't know who??? I haven't  ask because..... well what for!!! but any way GOD told me to tell him. I will get paid my worth...... I'm vacuuming like.... Lord you want me to tell this man....What!!!! uhhhh ok sounds like a plan. soooo Im thinking Im thinking how am I gonna say this cause.... true enough they are surely under paying in more than one way thats a story for another day uggghhhhhhh I wanna finish this in detail but I gotta go to work now......... anyway I said it!!!!!!!LOL Have a blessed day!  THought to ponder!!! self worth??? Duhhhhhh Gods only son..... priceless ........ "thought to self" so Imma need a raise.....lmbo!

Singing " I got no time for fake ones.......lol

Whats up fam!!!! Its FFRRRIIIDDAYYY ....sometimes the weekend is short sometimes its long depending on how much work I get done. .... I know one thing there is power in the tongue. I have no time for idle ( unemployed) words, words without a purpose..... boy boy boy my morning talk with God was and is refreshing...............everything that's built up around me is a result of employed and unemployed words. Words with purpose and words with out. Words that build up and tear down. You know It is not a pleasure to be around people who are careless with their words. Life and death are in the tongue..... hhhhmmmmmm I wonder what this means for people who are mute or people who have turrets syndrome..... control and no control. not saying that they can't be free or anything because who the son sets free is free indeed. Gods word never returns void " WORD"....wow I wish I had time to finish this therapy today but I gotta go do my granny's hair.....thank you love of my life the one and only almighty, for employed words.... Have a blessed day fam and use your words wisely I know I am.......  Everyday is a great day you can't say today is  a bad one. who knew that Job's seemingly worse day when he lost everything was really his best. Your ladder shall be greater than your former. I'm Just Sayin.....lol. Love yall

Keep on keepin on.....

Hey!What it do fam!!!! I had a conversation  last night right.....now I know that I can be a little blunt sometimes but anyway here it goes ....scene. lol "TiMori Im always trying to keep up with everybody" .....I said " YOU always trying to keep up with errrrbody!!!!! Don't be keeping up with everybody Be Kept UP WITh!!! How you gone be KEPT. If you always Keeping!!!.........Im about to copyright that!! Thank you lord. God is just so good, great excellent, marvelous, magnificant, gracious ,wonderful, brilliant, supercala...fragalistic...exbi...ala..doe shus.... lol if you haven't seen the movie Mary poppins you should see it.... note to self "find that movie and watch it again''....I was cleaning up this morning and telling God what I wanted to talk about in therapy. I wanted to talk about being selfish and boy did I have a good situation to talk about. lol, don't we all!? any way, My spirit spoke to me and said. " Is it not selfish to point out some one elses selfishness.....lol What a minute now self!! you steppin on my toes!! "In my amen corner voice" LMBO.......sooooooo there went that topic .....I know that I have been selfish and thinking back to just several situations, when I have pointed out some ones selfishness. It was selfish of me.... Lord forgive me....I always quot let he who is without sin cast the first stone for my own......my own...mmhhhh mmhhh mmhh my own selfish reason...... well I just put that stone down......you know Jesus, you really beat me up in these sessions.... but aint that a blessin!!! sooooooo uhhhh have a blessed, prosperous day! ''Make the money don't let the money make you!!'' lol Diamond from the movie" Players Club".

Hello family!! church was just great today! .......you know what yall Satan is a tricky bastard,........,........, <"Choice words". LOL but so serious...... thats all I don't even want to spend all my therapy time cursin him out cause he aint worth the words or the time it would take to type them.  but I will type. Eph. 3:20 Now unto him who is able to do exceedingly abundantly above all we can ask or think according to the power that  worketh within us. I got power HA Ha HA!!! Lucifer or however you spell it ..............it doesn't matter all that matters is our POWER and how we choose to use it.

Hello family sooooo I just watched this video my sister sent me of Steve Harvey on TBN and it was very inspirational if you haven't seen it you should check it out. he was talking about .....well he was talking about alot watch it!!!! lol. I just got a little distracted in my thoughts the children, " my nephews" are running around but any watch the above video. have a Blessed Friday!!!http://www.facebook.com/l.php?u=http%3A%2F%2Fwww.youtube.com%2Fwatch%3Fv%3DWgBi8iw_xBA%26feature%3Dyoutube_gdata_player&h=2AQGpbN_M

What it do familia? So I just say John Hagee on tv which I rarely watch and he was talking about marriage....." God wink" and boy did my first love Jesus and I have a great conversation during his message.... John Hagee said" Marriage cost you something".........What???? cause I know if it cost me what it cost my grandmothers and a few others I've come in contact with thennnnnnn .......well that's all I gotta say about that. I choose my words wisely. A marriage cost submission, submition of your will. Which I know quite a few people who get that confused..... Its the submission of 2 wills into one. Like mashed potatoes. Peel the outside layers make a boil, let the Lord mash you and "SHABAM" Mashed potatoes. Adam went to sleep and woke up married. LOL!  but anyway we as women were created from man for man. reminds me of one of my poems " Sand made from sand....made from man a Real Woman".....I knowwww.... its true that's what the word says woman was made for man. . a few scriptures I wrote down to read....Deut.44,Eph.6:4, Mal 2:13&14, 2 Tim. 3:1&2, Prov. 31:10. . John hagee stated that the greatest gift a man can give a wife is love and time with his children. Sometimes a husband needs your love when he deserves it least. same for the ladies........what am I saying ....why am I saying ......uhmmmmm no particular reason its just whats on my chest this morning.     " Say it wit yo chest" in my Kevin Hart voice. I really wanted to talk about my trip to my fathers grave for the first time on Fathers day.... Yep my very first time since he died in 2005.....wow that was a long time. surprisingly I didn't cry.  I  am fortunate to have a God that  set this man in place, just in case.....but anyway. I'm not really feeling the fathers day topic for this therapy session. I wonder how many people are in marriages that were, are, is, may soon be, could be, can't be, won't be, aint gone be, are going to be, will be,are, the right decision????? I honestly believe God knows all even before I knew it or went thru it sooooooooo married, engaged,single, just tryin to mingle :) lol. uhhhhhhhmmmmmm Its in the hands of who knows best. F..... all the rest. forget.....forget LOL oh yeah and I've been cursing satan out. It was kinda funny watching my friends reaction when I said it out loud :) when I explained my take on it she was like wow but that's just my weird personality yall. I am who he made me. Be blessed and prosperous today.

Hello family, I just thought about a conversation I had with Mr. Dudley the owner of Dudley hair products. we sat down years ago and had a very detailed conversation. After which he told me that I am a butterfly.......... "TiMori you need to focus on one thing and stick to it" he said , after I told him my life plan.......LOL for the people who really know me..... Its really odd that he didn't even know I have  tattoo of a big butterfly on my leg. got it when I was 18 or 17. Any way I kinda took his words positively- negatively and applied them to my life as if I wasn't doing whats right career wise. Trying not to be a butterfly. WoW that's who am I. I am a butterfly once a caterpillar, who self-destructed and created a cocoon "that's why for years to many I was unable to be recognized or identified with....spending time in a cocoon. I self soothed , often moved, self-pitied, questioned, encouraged, got courage, got anchorage, tossed, turned,squirmed trying to fit in places and situations I had out grown, moved on back home to where it started from and
"BAM" I'm up out this cocoon. more beautiful than I expected after a few lessons...........and trust me I think highly of my self
you can bet that. I remember being in high school not quite a cool kid, a smart one, nor an athletic one, not with the popular or gothic girls........  I'm in class thinking about the outside world. I would get up and leave class sometimes and go to the counselors office and just cry and cry wondering why my mother had died. I would wipe my eyes, suck it up go back to class open the door and smile. I talked to everybody never once discriminated. Its not in me......IJS. I'm really thinking about how much I missed my mommy.  Her first surgery, I can remember like yesterday. I wouldn't leave her side. I was about 13. I told my dad forget school I wasn't leaving and I stayed at the hospital. She wanted to get out the hospital so bad..................................ughhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh I'm not about to get into all that. I thank God for her carrying this once caterpillar........ I learn more and more about me everyday only a fool thinks they can no longer learn..... well I'm outta my cocoon yall and just wait till I spread my wings. I'M gone... well....Im gone show and reveil to some the beauty that has always been within me..... I'm gone show off my wings"DATS WHAT I'M GONE DO" LOL thats not gloating.....I'm just sayin. TiMori  be who you are like you've always been don't change for no one. sometimes you have to change the approach and not the coast.... Lord I know you've always been with me> I feel so free and happy to be ME.....I pray my family in this group therapy session are feeling the same Amen.

Choice Words

Well family boy did my first love and I have a wonderful day yesterday and I am so looking forward to what the next days, weeks, months and years are bringing.....I did alot of riding around  yesterday doing the things that are required of me...If ya don't woooorrrrrk Then ya don't eaaaaat! In the words of my baby. Gosh yesterday I went so many places. Had so many conversations first lets start off with one of the conversations between me and G.O.D. Lord why in the world did you let me put my business on that blog....cryin and all that and whats really happening......ewwwwwwwwwweeeeeeee I feel so indescribable . Lord this has to be a judgement free zone. Let he who is without sin cast the first stone. John 8:7.... All have sinned and come short of the glory of God. Romans 3:23.....oooooookkkkkkk my friend. So I personally don't give a ............." thinking of a good clean word"...........uhhhh give a damn...let me look up the true definition. well it works in a since. its better than some others I coulda, shoulda, woulda but didn't. I wonder if its okay to curse Satan out. I mean I would think if there is any one you need, we need, I need to curse out its him. I'm just saying. I'm sure we have all used a few choice words some more than others. I remember as a little girl playing with my cousins in Chicago and our baby dolls. We would wait till or parents left and say "okay lets play cursing" LMBO. ....I'm a little tickled. I was about 7 or 8 when I asked my momma why you curse at us so much. and she slapped me...LOL sounds brutal but it wasn't because of what I said it was the delivery. cause I said it with attitude and authority. but....months down the line she stopped. Anyone who knew my mother knows that she was a blessed saved, God fearing, beautiful intelligent, women. A sweet meany pie :) R.I.P. enough about that. I miss my mommy.......................LMBO I just had another memory..... Lord please bless the child that you have yet to bless me with cover with your anointing cause I was a trip.  as a youngin around the same age as before maybe younger. I saw the movie "MOMMIE DEAREST"......so my momma told me to put up me and lil ole mesha's clothes (lil sis). Its a oldest thing that you don't really get unless your the oldest child, but I felt like she had been workin me all day! Here's how it happened. " LYNN!!" " HANG UP YOU AND MESHA"S CLOTHES" I yell back from my room " Yes, mommie dearest! NO MORE WIRE HANGERS!!!!" she laughed but I still got a spankin. You would have to see the movie to understand. ooooooooooooookay. I didn't think about my mothers up bringing and how  saying that to her may have hurt her feelings , words hurt............... where was I............ cursing out Satan... all of this really isn't what I had planned on writing about when I sat down. "TiMori you never right what you plan." I must end this group therapy session Thanking the Lord for the bush with a Ram!!! Thank you for slapping me across the face with a light bulb and bringing back the memory of the story behind the saying " God always got a Ram in the bush" Genesis 22:13-14 Its a great story.  My father read it to me as a child Its even better as an adult. A great story about sacrifice. well time to hop in my ride. have a blessed day!!!! Honestly I really wanna take a nap but .....I can't do that!

Hello Family I must say this first cause I just heard it on the radio and  might forget.......friends and foes. A foe is some one who is sent to distract you from Gods purpose in your life. A friend is some one who tell you the truth and keep you on track even if its something you don't want to hear . Foes stretch you and use you for their selfish gain. Friends reinforce positivity and push you to use the gifts that God put in you. The bible says be aware of wolves in sheep clothing ......hmmmm be aware of Foes in Friend clothing.... Boy did I need to hear that this morning. TiMori check your Friendly environment. Lord thank you for the spirit of discernment. You know its not as easy as I thought it would be to reveal my deep internal issues or letting go and becoming totally vulnerable......maybe I am looking at it the wrong way. " I need a perception change"
Scratch all the above that was said.........rerrrrrrrrr rrrarrrr brrrreeerrr rewind..... You know its not as easy as I thought it would be to reveal my Self or letting go and becoming totally FREE! By telling the whole truth and nothing but the truth about ME... "Scene" lol sometimes that theatre just jumps outta me.

So now its honesty time......deep breathe in and out. for the past three days I have cried my eyes out and when I say cry I mean,every stage of crying. the sniffle cry, the drippy cry, the ugly cry the WHhhhhhhhhyyy !! cry. I did what the spirit had been telling me and I broke it off with my fiance'. no I didn't cheat or do I have another man... to be honest I don't want to be single again....ughhhh these tears won't stop flowing my eyes are almost shut swollen. There is no question about my love for this man. Lord you are my first love and it is evident that I have been cheating on you and in this moment with my tears flowing if it is your will so be it. I'm about to take a circle break.............................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................45min later wow does God work quick. I stepped outside to get a lil peace of mind and some fresh air.....and momma Annie calls. The looniest mother I ever had but everything she just said was so significant and on point.......significant.....sign....hhmmm I gotta look up the true definition.  Significant- Sufficiently great or important to be worthy of attention; noteworthy.  Momma Ann Baby girl...."Why are you crying if you have given it over to God?" Water aint free!!!! LOL ...wow a light bulb just slapped me. smh Momma ann went on to tell me here story things that she's never told me and it aint my business to share, She went on to tell me how I have influenced her and how as women not just women but God fearing women God should be our first love. " Baby I don't have to tell you, you already know that God is a jealous God"   pause worship break........I love you Lord and I lift my voice...to worship you. Ohhhh my soul rejoice ....take joy my king in what you hear and let it be a sweet, sweet sound in your ear....I exhault the, I exhault the ohhhhhhhh Lord......................goodness it aint neva took me this long to write a blog post.........note to self this is not a blog post its a book/therapy. maybe therapy is the wrong word isn't therapy private........hmmmm. Ok its Group therapy. Anyway momma Ann told me to  get my bible and read James. I've read James. I know it cause its one of the small books and I tried to read all the small ones first. LMBO just being honest. ... I'm gone get to it soon as i finish writing this blog......I mean Group therapy yall.......uhhhhhhhhhhh ok hmmmmmm lets see...yep thats all.


Be Blessed and all the rest




So I tried to wait but the bible just so happened to be sitting hear on the table. James 1:2-4 My brethren, count it all joy when ye fall into divers temptations. Knowing this that trying of your faith worketh patience. But let patience have her perfect work that ye may be perfect and entire, wanting nothing......wanting nothing. wow hmm ok baby Jesus. we will finish this conversation without group therapy 

Life of A Legend Star of A Story

Hello family....... Boy do I have a lot to talk about!! This pass weekend has been " Direction Changing" for me. If that makes any sense. I went to Jacksonville FL and I saw my favorite artist Leon Timbo " Amazing" but thats not what changed my direction.... There was an altar call on Saturday June 9th 2012 and it wasn't to get saved, for prayer or a million other things it could be for"not that it matters......"Flash back" when I first got saved I was about 12 uhhhhmmm yeah 12 sounds right my mother was still alive then but I used to go to the alter every time the said something other than being saved,cause I was already saved. I just figured it was always something else I could do better or get better....GOD only gets gooder and gooder (in my preacher voice) LMBO...Its funny but true...once you get grown you start listening to what people think of you..... back to the alter call It was about wanting more.....not only do I want but need and expect more. deserve......maybe not deserve. I deserve more than what I have excepted.... On the movie the Lion king Simbas father said " you are more than what you have become" What have I become??? hhhhhmmmmm well. All that matters is what Im becoming. I'm becoming more.
 Just a week ago I thought I wasn't going to be able to go on the trip cause I didn't have any money in my hand...emphasis on In My Hand. I'm never broke...My father owns the cattle on a thousands of hills and is rich in houses and land...... so onnnn and so forth the sayin.... I'm just sayin..... Oh yeah I saw the funniest comedian aaaahhhhhhhhhh Im bout to start rhhhmin ....let me stop before I get side tracked....ughhhhhhh i can't help it. back to the story at hand. I got my will to write back AMEN!!! I just figured it out while writing. God you are so F-ing Amazing........
Freaking!! Freaking people......see yall don't know me  AAHHHHhhhhhhhhhh now that was funny to me!!!!! Or do u ?  know me.... Well here is your introductory into "TiMori....... Life of A Legend Star of A Story"!! OHHhhhh MY GOODNESS ohhhh MY GOoonessss in my "Shaynae nae" voice, From the show Martin. I am so excited about this direction change........ Ladies and Gentleman .....Cats and Dogs........Bow Legged Mosquitos.... cross eyed frogs.....no more BLOG post this is my story yall.

Well fam its been about a month and as usual so much has went on I don't know where to start and most of it I can't talk about cause I don't share other peoples business but, I am so thankful for growing up with the parents that I had and the parenting I had R.I.P. Ivy, TiM and Joyce. Boy have I been missing them.Its amazing how you can give children any and every thing they ever wanted but all they really need is love and if they grow up with out it....well then we have confused adults who seek love in materialistic thing, some don't know how to love and some don't know how to receive it.The greatest commandment God gave was to Love!!! well..."that's all I gotta say about that" In my Forrest Gump voice...... Oh yeah I love this song by Frank Ocean I think people are really sleeping on him....most people don't think about forever.

Critical Thinking.......

So when I was awaken this morning.....emphasis on AWAKEN...Lord you woke me!.satan was already woke and I immediately told him ....." Don't start that shit today" LMBO....some people so saved .......I'm just being honest that's what I said...............so any way I used the rest room sat prayed ..... went turned on the T.V. skip the news. and turned straight to Rod Parsley.... so here are my cliff notes...... Every thing I've been going thru is a direct result of what I've been willing to tolerate.... "good and bad"
The control of a dictator is directly dependant  upon  those who he oppresses..... Whoa....note to self whats dictating your life....Ok just checkin! I know  yall think I'm crazy. lol but any way.
The only way for evil to excel is when good men do nothing...........good men do nothing.........men and women ladies don't get it mistaken ....let that marinate.....Nazirite definition- Some one who does more than what required.......Whats required? Required- to have need of........ Do you do more than whats needed TiMori? Or do you complain about what needs to be done.......Work toward what God has already promise me. Get knocked Thursday get up Friday at it again. Saturday at it again Sunday again Monday everday...... Glory It feels good to wake up in his presence every morning......well its afternoon now but yall get my drift. and I still haven't forgot to tell yall about my audition in my last post but I'll get to it... Love you FaM be blessed!!

be right back.

Ok sooo I went to another audition and another no go this time....... but guess whatttt this time I didn't cry.......cause I new i was there for a reason. you know?  Like if the judges pick me or not.... Dang I gotta run yall but I promise I will come back .....Be Blessed family.....

hello family.......I stayed up until 4:00 am. which is unusual for my new sleeping pattern......but normal for my old one. I remember I would stay up sometimes to 6am. around 2 am is when I get my best writing done. My grandma always say ain't nothing open after 2 but legs...lol around 2 my mental juices get to flowing.....strangely I didn't write anything this morning. I was just laying looking at the ceiling...thinking. Trying to balance it all out.  I had a conversation yesterday where I stated " Its always good to have a plan even if the plan doesn't work, its still apart of the plan"...... note to self if your plan two didn't fail ...then you wouldn't be on the right plan one. God has the number one plan....... but any way I've been meaning to talk about my dream about spiders I mentioned a few entries ago... I dreamed about them again since that entry.  I dreamed I was laying on the ground and baby spiders where falling out of the sky each hanging from a string..... about to get on me... all over me. .... and whats so crazy is since that dream I've walked outta the house at least four or five times and a spider was in my car or on my car. Spiders are a sign of financial blessing.....hey well Lord I'm ready open up the windows of heaven. It just hit me that's what it was about.  Lord I thank you for blessing me in order to be a blessing...... Amen.

I got my mojo back!!!!!......

Mannnnnnnnnn I know its been a minute family and again I apologize.....as I was sitting here thinking about what to write. I began to reflect on my life....."im thinking to self" and self said "huh?" "what the heck are you gone write about in all this Pan- duh- mo-ne-um.....of coarse thats not how you spell it sooooooo I just looked it up..................Pandemonium.....definition "a place of uproar and chaos" ....... see the word pandemonium just came to me. and I used it in that sentence not knowing the true meaning. but knowing what it meant ..... " I hope that makes sense........Lord I bless your holy name , I praise your holy name! you deserve all the honor and the praise,,,,,, All my fake ones be quiet...... Now all my real ones make noise, make noise make noise....."Fat Man scoop in my head" LMBO " Randomocity" Ok now the pandemonium is gone......now to my MoJo ! Im about to write a song...... Called Pandemonium........oooooooooooooooooo     ooooooo thank ya Jesus..... My juices is flowin.....I gotta go write this  pesong......poem or song. don't be laughing at me yall. Love yall
. ................................random thought I wish I could make it to my big sis event tommorow. Lord I gotta work on this communication.....but hey it takes two to tango...... I'm just sayin YO! " .......OK so why did I just put my hands up like a uptown thug..... lmbo off. Big sis much love......


Awwhhh man I almost forgot to post a song........yes Im a nerdy , GOD loving, Praying, thug.... " Well something like it ... I mean something like a thug" In my Dae Dae voice, from the movie Next Friday.

Guess What???

good afternoon fam.....Im really feeling Syleena Johnson this morning. heyyyyyyy 3 snaps up 3 snaps down!!! but any way I'm gone pick up where I left off yesterday....... "When God touched me" My lil sister and I were living in an apartment. I was living life to the fullest or so I thought. It was about 12 o'clock and I was headed to bed. I was trying to go to sleep and God was trying to talk to me.......honestly I was ignoring....father I'm sleepy....silly me. So... I could feel his presence in  the room but my back was turned. and then a touch......I lost my breath all of a sudden and I felt a slight nudge.... I thought I was about to die. I couldn't move. I couldn't cry, just stiff and still. God replied " How dare you act like I haven't done anything for you and not tell people what I brought you thru...... I jumped straight outta bed and began to praise and pray. I mean the whole nine....speaking in tongues and all. I cried and praised and prayed and praised and cried.....all night long and all morning. My sis came in the room and was like MORI!!!!! WHATS WRONG!!!??? but I couldn't talk. Only words outta my mouth praise and tounges. At the moment it was pretty scary yall.....I mean he literally nudged me and this is only the beginning .....after staying up all morning I got in my car and started to take the drive from Tuscaloosa to home....Prattville and on the back road 82.....I saw a man sitting on the bank... Something told me to turn around and I did. I pulled up and it was a shaggy looking white man.... I rolled down my window and said " Are you ok?" He replied "NO" of coarse I said "Whats wrong?" He said " Well....I'm just sitting here waiting to jump in front of a big semi truck to run me over" Pause for a moment.........uhhhhhhhh "Whats your name?"  "TiM but they call me T Bone" " Ok T Bone we bout to pray" We prayed and I told him it will be okay. He went on his way and I continued my journey......needless to say I got right into prattville and ran outta gas.....smh. without a dollar in my pocket. I walked a good half a mile to the pay phone called my uncle, He picked me up and  I told him all that had went on......with more detail than I'm giving yall....but any way thats what happened when God touched me. and I haven't been the same since.... I always let it be known what he's done for me and try to walk in his purpose daily..... some say it was my call to preaching.......thats not the only way I can tell the world my story and share his glory....... Im just sayin. but if it is or was so be it.......I just don't see it....but hey what do I know about Gods Master plan.......I"ll just continue to share the truth with this pen.......Let me here the church say Amen......... I am killing my self laughin. I love yall be blessed!!!

Well fam Saturday didn't go the way I expected.....I auditioned for THE VOICE again..... I woke up Saturday morning 5:30 am and started on my 3hr drive to Atlanta. My aunt Mary came along for the ride. I was so sleepy I had to stop and get a five hour energy drink. So we get there, 10 dollar parking which was pretty cheap, walked up hill a mile to the line. I get to the front and realize my I.D. was in the car..................................ugh WHYYYYYYYYYYyyyyyyyyyyy!!!!!! "Lord have you seen these thighs" Aunt Mary said " you better run and go get it"  As I began speed walking I started reminiscing on my Prattville Panther track days, when my dad Timothy Robinson made me keep running....even tho it wasn't in me.....to think about it now is pretty funny! but any way I made it back just in time. Auntie wished me luck and remained outside the building. I stood in line another 7 to 5 hours. finally my group of 10 got to our audition room. I walk to my seat, look at the judge and think to myself " Not you again" the same lady I had last year. Well I'm gone give it all I got again...and I did auditionie num 7..is that a word??? lol well singer number 7. then went 8,9 and ten. she dismissed all but 3. I was one of the dismisies....is that a word LMAO... any way just like last time. Every one in my audition group began to compliment me and wonder why I wasn't picked...as if I had an answer...I felt a little water trying to gather in my eyes then I said to self..." YOU Betta NOT Cry!! Suck it up! I was stopped by an older man who auditioned with me and he gave me his card and told me "he was a producer who does ever thing, mixing, mastering.... I shook his hand and said "I knew God sent me here for a reason"..... I walked with confidence and hips of intimidation all the way to the car..... How I hated to tell Mary about another rejection and boy was she in shock......to be honest I was just glad to take off my shoes and socks and get outta that parking garage. and as soon as we pulled out and pulled off.... My feet blew up!!! LOL Matter of fact they still swole. but any way all the way home I drove..... got in the house took a quick nap. woke up and went to chill and celebrate with my Mafio fam. Went to the crib with my man and then it happened......I broke down. I got on my knees and began to weep....just God and me! No judging. I started thinking about when he literally touch me. that's a whole nother story that I'll probably share later on this evening. I just wanted to tell my fam about my weekend.....Be blessed and know that mans No could be GODs Yes..... I'm just sayin...... I love Lyfe Jennings. I can't wait to fix up my old school...

Sometimes I just wanna listen

Hello family ........I am counting down the days???? Saturday is almost here??? Why you say? I let you know Monday. but any way. I've been feeling Ceelo Green.... today.... Sometimes. I dreamed about spiders again last night......believe it or not that's a good thing. Everyday I find out more and more about myself. I'm trying to concentrate on writing but I'm listening to this song and its speaking such truth............Sometimes I just wanna listen..... Today just listen. I have all these distractions.......love yall.
.......................................................................................I thought about I knew blog I wanna start called WEEPING WOMEN.......I'll explain in more detail when I get it together but its going to be a place where praying, weeping, just plain ole living women can express themselves freely.... Make sure you listen to Ceelo Green....

Well family! Its time for an update. I just left a job interview. It went very well. I am claiming it in Jesus name...........Oh yeah I forgot to tell yall I currently have a job. I've only been working there 2weeks .... LOL so let me tell u about the past two weeks..............."wrote a song about it , wanna hear it, here it goes"lol "In living color" Day one in my competitive sales position... the manager didn't show up for my two hours of training. so another girl showed me how to work their ancient cash register......"sigh and rolled eyes". So here am I standing in the mall in front of some store that sells shoes.... running 4 booths, selling dresses at one booth,rings at the other, braclets in the middle and finally sunglasses too. My four hours of training quickly changed from two. and to the companies surprise I made more sales than there employees who gross the highest weekly..................................................."In 4 self trained hours"  do you hear me!!!   Well lets get to the enemy.   My second day, the top saleswoman walked up to me and said..." Hello I'm a psychic" I wasn't surprised . I just looked her dead in her eyes and said I have a gift TOO.....BOOM!! LOL I think to myself. "I bet that surprised you". She replied ohhhh your a psyhic too..........NOOooo I have a gift, that I use wisely..."never revealing the gifts I have up on me"........and the things that God was showing. I was internally giggling as she was trying to read me. She stated that the glow and the ora I have shining around me was amazing......... I said to self yeah hefa thats that hedge of protection around me...   On to my next work day. she was there smiling and waiting. My sales started booming. as I ring up a customer. She attacks ....steps up to my personal space, not in but too close to my face and yells and said I'm stealing her customers......................." Holy spirit come quick cause I'm bout turkey, roast beef, HAM and slap this B5#6h....... I open my mouth so quick " You betta step tha ....f#..........take a breath..........BACK!" You betta step back LADY and recognize where u at!!! Now Imma holla at you about dat when I finish with my customers.She turned around and said F#ck It! I calmly rang them up while boiling on the inside. After finishing all my buyers. I'm standing at my register and look down to her booth and think to self I should go down there and spit FIRE== but the spirit wouldn't let me move. " Stand still and know that I am GOD" 3 minutes went by and she came to me and apologized to my surprise. All I said was" hunny you just don't know your life flashed before your eyes."... Omega George used to sing this song in church " Don't let him ride cause he might wanna drive!" Randomocity.. I'm Laughing on the inside.....

I get home and got a call to interview for another job.... See the enemy will recognize you and try to be in a disguise. He'll sit back and wait right till you bout to make it and attack... but you have to stand still and know there is a GOD! just wait a lil while. He'll fight all your battles. The enemy knows the gifts and blessings God has placed up on me and he'll try any thing to stop me and he won't just be using that woman. Now to my word that I stand on every mornin.......................Ephesians 3:20  Now unto he who is able to do exceedingly abundantly, above all I can ask or think according to the power that worketh within me!!!!! Mathew 21:21 If you have faith and doubt not, you will not only do what was done to the fig tree, but also if you say to this mountain, Be removed and cast into the sea...IT SHALL BE DONE!! AMEN!

Now family, Do you know the power that you posses???? Life is a test. Be Blessed! Its Friday and we made it thru!

What time is it??????

Happy Monday Family!!! Got a late start... Speaking of being late. I learned quite a few things this past weekend. I try to learn somethingggggggg hmmm let me think of the right word..............significant. life-changing...... Life-Changing .... not the exact word I m looking for but it will work. I try to learn something life changing daily. I'm going to start with  this lady riding down the Eastern blvd in her motorized wheel chair with grocery bags. As sensitive as I am, I didn't feel sorry for her at that moment, a lady I didn't know and she didn't know me and  I may never see again, gave me a push. she wasn't riding slow, she wasn't looking sad like " Help Meeee"  she was rolling at a steady speed with her groceries..... so she could feed herself and possibly her family as we both sat at the red light. I drift off and get a new in sight own my own life and sing " "Cut on the greeeen light" LMBO. A strange look comes from the passenger seat "no time for explaining" back to me and my Epiphany.... Life is like this lady  in the wheel chair and I as we sit and stare at the red light in two different rides on different times. Trying to eat and feed our families.......... Last night my Aunt Humming Mary and I had a conversation and she said to me every thing happens in do timing and not on my time on Gods time..... and that's all  I gotta say about that...... I wonder wear my snuggle bunnies at??/ Randomocity Maybe under my bed.....SMDH what have I did......sorry fam If yall lost me its that "randomocity"   time! time! time! your most precious gift that you can give and can't get back... use it wisely.

Ambiguous

Hello family, Happy belated Valentines Day!!! I'll speak on that in my next blog if I don't forget....I just finished defining the word "Ambiguity" in comparison to my life........which brings me to my own interpretation. but first the definition....   Ambiguity is a condition where information can be understood or interpreted in more than one way and is distinct from vagueness, which is a statement about the lack of precision contained or available in the information. Blaahhh Blahhhh Blahhh Blahhh Blahhhhhh......I read it three times, One for the Father the Son and the Holyghost..."Thank Ya!" lol time for charades ... One word two meanings, One phrase different understandings, legal and political word trickery. Words, words, words....................................................I was daydreaming for a second but now I'm back " God brought back to my remembrance a fortune cookie I got and kept a few years ago. It said " you have the power to write your own destiny. hmmmmmmmmm. The Bible says Write the vision and make it plain.....of coarse I had to look up the book Habakkuk 2. Then the Lord answered me and said:

“Write the vision
And make it plain on tablets,
That he may run who reads it.
³ For the vision is yet for an appointed time;
But at the end it will speak, and it will not lie.
Though it tarries, wait for it;
Because it will surely come,
It will not tarry.

Wow!!! I take it back, I wasn't day dreaming earlier it was a vision which I have quite often. Words, words, Word,  "DING" you serve God who is non ambiguous.....His answers are Yes and Amen. really fam I could keep going but I have so much catching up to do today..... Say what you mean and mean what you say... no ambiguity- no maybe's probables, mights, coulds, shoulds,woulds.

Family boy am I glad to make it to the second month of the new year....!!!! God is truly working fast this year it already feels like the summer if you ask me....yesterday it was so pretty. My cup runeth over with joy and as I always say can't nobody take it from me cause the didn't give it :).  Moving right along I've been on 3 job interviews in the past 2weeks and guess what the all want you to pay a fee before working.........like really I'm trying to get paid not pay. Boy this world is backwards or maybe I am either way we aint on the same page. In one of my poems in one of my up coming books I state " Few understand my dyslexic mentality, for the visual reality"  "LIFE"...speaking of books. I finally finished a chapter of my life story. I can honestly say this book is going to be a great challenge but I'm up for it. I truly hope it touches some one. bestseller or not. We've all been thru alot. I pray for the person or persons I'm living my life for. If I can make it so can you. My song of choice this morning stated of being Mary don't you Weep by Aretha Franklin. " I have to listen to music as I type" but I'm about to go YouTube something else. gotta get that good gospel in first.....here it goes  Lina " I won't let my baby down".... yall have a blessed Friday and I look forward to more blog post this month. I have so much I wanna share but I must be patient the year is going to be full of surprises.

Oh yeah don't let anyone still your joy! And don't let your baby down! LOL
I Love you baby!

Man I miss my sister...

Hello family... well I was looking forward to seeing my lil ole Mesha this weekend but do to my financal situation we must prolong it again for another weekend. buuuut I love ya and can't wait to hug ya!! I know thats a lil lame but thats the way I feel. Only time can heal. "I need a healing for my soul give me a healing for my soul"....Randomocity...... . God has truly blessed this month and its getting kind of ruff at the end. but I am expecting, I do mean expecting...BIGGER, BETTER Blessings when the first roles around again......this year just got started and we will soon be in the second month of it......... SINGING " IM ABout toooo make a profit" Got blessings bustin out the closet".... "I finally got the keys to unlock it".....LOL

On the right track now....

OK family I must and I do mean must start with January 14th......  ;() It finally happened. He really asked me...... Asked me what?... you say.... He asked the big question. Which came as a beautiful surprise.... To be honest I am still in shock and happy...nahhh happy isn't the word I'm ex static ... I guess that's how you spell that if not oh well. I'm truly over whelmed with joy... So I decided to call and spread the joy.....not thinking about the fact that Satan comes to steal, kill and destroy. I called my grandmother who lives outta state and one of my uncles happen to be there soooooo I decided to be courteous and share...."Beware" So he started talking laaaa laaa laaa yaaa yaaa yaaaahhh.. " Yes sir he's a good man"  " Well I don't know TiMori you've made alot of mistakes in the past" Yeah your right uncle, we all have" and then satan jumped in ........ I can laugh about it now cause its kinda funny but by the time the argument ended he truly had me crying on one of the best days of my life. I tried to explain that because of the mistakes I've made in the past I can truly appreciate the man in my life.  he went on to tell me I'm your uncle and you need to shut up when I talk and I have the right to tell you about your mistakes in the past and you just listen..........cue the music!!!!! I said to self ...self said "huh"tell the holy spirit to come quick.......... WARNING don't read any further if you can't handle it cause like I said before this blog is as real as it gets. In my mind I said "WHO DA 4U#K ARE YOU !!..... to tell me about my past and who I used to be and where I was when I was 22 or whatever age I made my mistakes......
I didn't say that ... I didn't say that yall. I ask the spirit to come quick cause I was about to let him have it... what I said was "let he who is without sin cast the first stone." Which is much better than what I was thinking IJS And he became livid. I tried to explain that he took my comment wrong and by me saying we've all made mistake, I wasn't throwing off, I was just saying in general. Alcohol you have no dominion and your chains are broken from my family and friends. So he goes on to say ooohhhhhh you wanna bring Jesus in it.... LOL PAUSE......I know that I am weird and my way of thinking and interpreting life and words are ......
 supercalifragilisticexpialidocious.... what did you say?? supercalifragilisticexpialidocious....LMBO
but why do people say ohhhh you want to bring God in it???? Isn't he always in it....again I'm just sayin...
moving right along... the conversation with my uncle he ended up hanging up the phone.... In my face I might add. In the words of Cee lo" One Monkey Can't Stop No Show!" that is really funny to me. Tickled Pink.... hmmmm I wonder what my soon to be hubby will think about that color for the wedding. I'm just kidding Black and Gold  N.O. till I go... the Moral of this story isssssss  BE AWARE the enemy is always lurking he can use your family , friends, wife or husband. On a great note I must end " My lil sista and I relationship is now mended" Yeahhhhhhhhhhh!!!!! Big sis your next where ever you at.... Love Peace and Hair Grease.

Ok family I've been protesting facebook for a min cause it started to seem more negative than positive........but right now. I am truly start to see and believe all things work together for the greater good!!!!! Thank Ya!!!  Lord  I praise and thank you for your presence in my life, my friends and family. .......Rain on us..... Breathe on US.... Shower down......Yall don't know my story...." But hey I guess that's why your reading my blog" LOL.. I must say it has been a long road. I been up , been down, I've been lost, found. felt lower than the earths core........ Lord I praise you for the keys and these open doors..... Which brings me to 2004....hhmmmmmm right before my father died of a massive Heart attack in church right before he opened the church doors. Lord send me your glory.