Mary don't you weep

Big wheels keep on turning, proud Mary keep on burning....we rolling, rolling on the river. My grandma Mary is rolling on the river to glory. I shall be a continuance of her story. On Snapchat early today I said" I really don't want my granny to die but I definitely don't want her to suffer on this side." I've just come from my grandmothers house ............. Thank God for the phone call I received before I went up there! He's an on time God, yes he is. I heard some encouraging words I needed to hear,  My thought bring me to one of my favorite movies the " Five Heart Beats" Duck was excepting an award and he said. " My mentor told me I will become a great writer when I suffer more and I now, know what that means"
Well I now, know what it means to dwell in greatness.......For me the word suffer has always had a negative connotation. I have no negativity in me but a sense of suffering, not physically. Its my eyes and all they have seen. A dying breed. I wont go to deep......I just wonder what my granny is thinking while she is laying there Jesus. I could hear the fluid in her lungs with each breath as she fights to hold on. What is it? What could it be. I told her again to be free. No need to hold on for me. Yes I'll mourn. Yes I'll cry but its not about I. Nothing in life is. Its all about you Lord. One thing for sure you get the glory for her story, Amen filled with greatness.

The moon, stars and the sky

WOW! I'm so full of life, in my life right now! Its perplexingly joyful ......perplexingly.... I believe I just made that up but basically, I'm beyond overjoyed. What a mighty God! I still have joy! I mean with all that's going on. I still have joy. I mean! OKAY, look yall when I was a lil girl sanging with the big choir, because that's how I got down. LOL We used to sing " JOOOOOOyyyyyyy JOOOOOOoooooY JOOOOooooooy unspeakable"  in an up tempo. It gives me the giggles. I believe I'm being tickled.....Just thinking about how, I wiggled singing about Gods awesome wonder. I was only a child then.
Right now in this present moment. WOW! Lord How?........... When I stood up  to speak at my fathers funeral. I remember saying " I have a peace that passes all understanding, My Father was a chosen man. Many are called but few are chosen.........and what ever else I said before I sang a bit of the last song we sang together. "About that peace" Thank you Lord for showing me that I spoke it into existence these are your lips and hips, dip.....LOL. Okay! Imma quit. But this is your body tho, Lord and I give it as a willing sacrifice. Aight moving right along. Hey I just said something then yall. But I meant it. However he works out the in betwence that's up to him. I made up another one "Betwence" often used by elders. We won't go there. Any way I am at peace. Singing "What God has for me it is for meee".
SO I drifted of for a minute thinking about my wedding. My first thought was " Oh Father God I have so many mothers and they are all going to want to be seated first by the ushers" Then I think " We should elope just me and him." I could wear my dream dress, do an amazing photo shoot" SHOOT. "No way I could leave my sisters out" " I Could" "No I couldn't" I GOT II! What if he surprises me and everyone is already there and I don't have to plan or organize who sits where. Its just a surprise!!!! In all honesty what matters is that he and I are there. Singing.... and I swear, by the moon and the stars in the skyyyy. I'll be there. I'LL BE THERE. Yall like how I threw that adlib in there. I'm outta here. Be blessed and remember you control your inner peace and joy. It can't be stolen only given.
 

I won! Thanks to the Anterolateral Ligamont

I won that part of the competition. I got a $50.00 gift certificate and had to go back for the grand finale the following weekend. Nawlins said he would have no parts of it. And he didn't but Humming Mary did. She went right back to the bar with me. We entered with peace. Who would have thought there was another artist out there with a name similar to me? But she wasn't. I sang my two rounds. During the in between process I found out a high school friend of mines mother was a judge. After the production crew made a detailed video of my performance. The tallied scores said my idea of recording with them was a no go. That mother made it her business to let me know there was no way I could have made 8th place if the scores were added the right way. How sweet was she. No longer was winning of importance to me. It is my heritage to stand! Proud, Erect and Unafraid! I will face the world boldly and say "This I have done, We have done, God has done!" And I'm still going.
As for the Anterolateral Ligament its a newly discovered muscle they found in 2013 at the University of Belgium. Its amazing to know find something you already had all along would go so long undiscovered.......but when it was. "Yes and Amen." God said.

Life 4 Real: About tomorrow ... I mean today

Life 4 Real: About tomorrow ... I mean today: ...........Singing Tomorrow, tomorrow I love you tomorrow you're only a day away...... I didn't get to sing Karaoke tonigh!! becaus...

About tomorrow ... I mean today

...........Singing Tomorrow, tomorrow I love you tomorrow you're only a day away...... I didn't get to sing Karaoke tonigh!! because karaoke night is on Wednesday LMAO. My apologies yall but that is funny!!! If only you could have been there to my cousin and I. Our faces when we walked in the empty place with a few powder faces sitting at one table ....I'm tickling pink. lol Makes me think back to this Karaoke competition I was once a part of, at this place called Irish Pub. My Lord is this going to be a lot of detail so pay attention or you'll have to start again RIGHT HERE.
Some time ago in the year of these twenties 20.....? I heard on the radio there was a singing contest at Irish Pub. The best Karaoke performer would win free studio time with whatever the studio was??? The name really didn't matter to me...and so goes independent artistry. I just wanted to record something! So I went to the competition the second week with my then fiancé. Who had played on my compassion for my brothers who have not broken away from the Willie Lynch mentality. Thank you father God I know now its not my job to fix. thank you Lord for fixing me! BUT! Anyway this aint about him or me its about the journey. I don't remember what I had on but I do remember I felt gorgeous. point to ponder........that being said I walked in and the music scratched! I was totally oblivious of the fact that I had just introduced Melanin to a room where some had never seen sun rays. I didn't check to see if the atmosphere was welcoming. You can't stop the sun from shinning at the break of day. So I went to the bar. The bartender sends me to the DJ booth. I give the DJ Lady my information as I turn around I hear him say " What THA F you say" my head voice said " Oh SHhhh.. don't say it!"  My mouth blurted. "OH Jesus !" What's going on? Before I know it Five security guards are standing in front of us. The DJ Lady, Myself and my then man, who had just uttered the words "WTF you say" New Orleans was definitely in the building with me. I'm just saying. lol  I saw the security pushing an irate man away from us. his words started to become clear. He chanted "Yall niggers need to get out of here!" Yall don't belong in here! " I'm not gonna stand for it!" " I can't believe yall aren't saying anything!!! The man went on and on!!! The owner told him he had to leave. Or he might have left? either way light and darkness can't dwell in the same place. As he was being escorted out...The owner lead us to courtesy seats, exclusive drinks included. Nawlins begans to tell me. The irate man asked him. " Are you  and your nigger chick lost." He thought the man was talking about the football game. so he just laughed and grinned, thinking it was in reference to his team. and the man said it again. " Are. YOU. AND your nigger lost" Nawlins said "WTF You JUST SAY?! I gotta pause to laugh yall. One thing I must say. It took a lot but Nawlins sat there with me because I meant I wasn't leaving. until I finished singing... as I sat there and sipped on my drink and he orders whatever he can think. I think about the ways that were paved for me to have the right to sing at this bar. the counter top scars. I wanted to cry...but I held it in my soul as I listened to the other artist. People were approaching me periodically to say "We don't believe in what that man was saying. Yall are welcome here" In the other ear I hear. We need to leave now! You got me in here! my peace, who gone be waiting?  Nawlins was being verbal security with constant whispering.  He continued his mummer with  "Now what if they kill us when we get outta here?" I started to notice the people that stayed and agreed with the ignorant man but weren't bold enough to say anything. Then,  I hear my name " TiMori Lynn you up! DJ Lady proceeded to play " The Jefferson's theme song. "You moving on up." I wasn't for the humor! But I laughed it off with a smooth, elegant " stance dance" to the microphone. She had hanging  over her boxed in podium. I walked to the middle of the dance floor. I put down my head. The music began. I lifted my head and tears poured from my soul. In that moment I learned how to channel and let go. I opened myself up to allow all who where present, witness a beautiful souls secrets unfold in  notes. Creating a mist of ecstasy and peace. immaculate relief to see......... I'm so ecxited about today because its now Wednsday! God is blessing my life far greater than karaoke.  SOooo that was that experience. I didn't mention my husband in this entry but God did give me a wink to let me know he's paying attention. God or the husband?  What words do you use to describe a silent kiss? Yes and Amen. Praise God I know what day it is! It still tickles me pink to think I thought today was yesterday. Now its today rejoice and be glad in it! That's all, that's it. Be blessed. Amen again

I got it!!!!! I'm going to sang. I'm going to sing Karaoke .....my ride will be here in a sec just wanted to let yall know.

I'm Learning

So I just left grannies house and I am beyond emotional. I really need to channel this energy and tears into something positive. Maybe I should meditate, maybe I should eat some cake or go for a run. Its a little to late in the evening to get that kind of adrenaline going.... well not really but I just don't want to exercise at the moment. My granny is suffering. She just kept saying "Hurry up, Hurry up Jesus. I can't take it." I just held her hand and squeezed lightly to make my presence known. She was to weak to squeeze back. The tears I couldn't hold back ......Lord I don't understand why she must suffer so. It makes me think of a old song my dorm buddy in Hay Hall used to sing. " I'm learning how to live holy, I'm learning how to live right, OOhhhh I'm learning How to suffer, for if I suffer I gain eternal life." I used to love to hear and sing that song. It honestly never made much sense to me. I see no reason for us to suffer when that's the reason why Jesus carried the cross.... A beautiful song it is. I don't quite understand it. Last night I had a conversation with Humming Mary about suffering and asking God for understanding. She said that everything isn't meant to be understood, So I just shut my mouth and let my thoughts linger about inside and swallowed them. Sometimes silence is the best food. Lord knows I didn't want to upset her. She has been such a great caretaker of her mother. Father pour out an extra special blessing for my auntie. She is such a lovely lady. I haven't heard her hum in a while. It seems as though her spirit is broken. Deep down I know its something only you can fix. Touch that place Jesus and heal it. Just like you did me. Set her free. There is so much peace in you. I really want everyone to feel it and live in it. Speaking of living, Oh how great it would be to let these tears roll off my nose onto my husbands shoulder letting each drop erase the worlds boulders .....When I do finally get to lay my head there I declare.....tears of joy. It makes me smile just thinking about it. I know its worth the wait. The Lord has never failed me. Yall have a blessed morning, day or evening depends on when you're reading. Either way be blessed. I am no matter what the state. Amen

WHOAHHH!!! LOL

Merry Christmas family!!!! I pray it was great. I spent the day at home singing "onnnnnn my ownnnnn" lol but never alone because I have you Lord. Humming Mary was in and out of the house today, back and forth to grannies. Granny made it to Christmas although the hospice nurse said she wouldn',t but look what God did! Around this time I miss my mother and father a great deal. I often wonder what life would be like if they had lived to see my sister and I in the present. I'm beyond blessed to have had them the time I did and that upbringing was amazing.
It was so awesome to watch my niece online having a blast at Disney Land. Father God you're the man! Bless my sisters, their husbands and children. Since I'm on a roll bless my husband, our children and household. I'll never leave them out for sure..........long pause for thought about my household. Uhhhmmmm Jesus you said in Ephesians3:20 exceedingly......well you know what you said. You gave me this imagination and know the thoughts that linger in my head. That being said I want to thank you for blessing me above all I could imagine or think because this thinker is always thinking. A home of peace and pure love where your presence shall forever reside is my desire. Holy Fire! lol  Burning with passion of love everlasting.....my mind has a brief interruption from a scene in the movie "The Nutty Professor" The granny was talking about Shermans level of intimacy "wanting and wanting and wanting until WHOAH! Make yo head pop off!" lmao I'm just human yall. They call me Wild Beauty. It's not your booty its your beauty. lol
Any way where was I........my home, my children, my husband....being intimate.... I'm pretty sure this is a subject to be written about in my notebook. Lord please don't let my head pop off. I'm yet holding on...lol Moving right along. I am beyond excited about what's going on in my life beyond being a wife. God is making great moves as far as my career goes.......as far as my career goes....who knows? but God. I'm expecting greatness. That's all I have to say about that. Every day I give it all I got and do what I know sooooooooo the story goes.  Which brings about another memory from Cali. I was talking to a older gentlemen who had taken some interest in me, the young tenderoni seemingly.  He  asked me several questions which I answered " I don't know and I'm not sure". He then said "What do you know?" I then replied " I know enough to know I want to know more." that was about 3 years ago. I know more now for sure and still want to know more. To God be the glory for this story. Amen

All I want for Christmas

Well family I have so much I would like to say. I honestly can not believe I slept half of the day away. I've been fighting a cold. As you all know or should know. I wasn't really asleep being that I 'm a dreamer. I had some very interesting dreams today. I must write them in my notebook. I can say that I was awakened from my REM sleep by a great phone call. God is so amazing yall.
So strategic he is.......I would love to elaborate on my conversation with this person but at this moment a no kiss and tell contract is important.....lol Speaking of kissing. Lord I would really love to kiss my husband Christmas morning. I  know I've been mentioning my husband to you quite a bit lately. I love him so much. I pray that he can feel it where ever he is. I even have him a gift under the tree. That may sound a lil crazy for those on the outside looking... Not crazy more like faithy lol. My faith is the size of a peach seed. I believe, I believe.......
I've never kissed underneath mistletoe! Now that's unbelievable! but its true.
Lord, there are so many simple things I desire to do with the one appointed by you.....mhhhh pause for the cause, can I get a round of applause.
Now back to that conversation I wanted to elaborate on.....what a great Christmas present to hear the words " I'm proud of you". Those words brought about inner tears. I shared my appreciation for that great present. I could hear the voice of amazement that I hadn't heard those words. After we hung up the phone my thoughts still lingered. Thinking when was the last time I heard those words. I honestly can't remember. Please don't get it misconstrued, I do receive compliments a bit more than usual but the word "I'm proud of you"  have much more value. Lord bless as only you can. I thank you Father God! I believe I really needed to hear that. For so long I tried to live as pieces, what a blessing it is to be here a whole person. I love you Lord and don't forget to let my future husband know I
love him too. I expect to see him Christmas morning! Yup I put it out there. Amen up in here!

Love Peace and Hair Grease

Rest, rest, rest. Thank you Lord for sweet rest this week. Lord knows I needed it. I mean who knew it would be a task to make yourself rest..........Well, I started this blessed therapy entry at the end of last week. Now, its Sunday and I'm grateful to say I made it..... and " am elated to meet this weeks acquaintance!" I recorded a free style for that statement on my studio phone....
lets see where shall I start this evening, morning or day depending on your location on this planetary station. I often wondered as a child, was I the only one who was constantly surrounded by music? Meaning there is always music in my head...just incase you didn't catch that. No point intended.
Now that I am an adult, I have joyfully come to realize I am not alone,,,,singing" ring, ding, dong! Come on" another song. lol
 Slight pause for some turkey pepperoni..........Hungry Greedy Gurl is coming. lol I hope this brand taste just as great as "Momma Cozzi's". We shall see what Amour brand has to offer. I am covered with the full amour of God. I had to get that in write quick.
Praise be to God that hunger is filled!!! Note to Kellogg on my instagram account , they should make a limited edition of Blueberry Lemon Cluster cereal with extra lemon clusters.  " Girl you gone tell them people that!?" says Wild Beauty. " You think I won't when I will!? You think I aint when I am!?" lol
My beloved readers, I pray that by now you have caught on. I Wild Beauty, am Hungry Greedy Gurl in TiMori Lynns' World of graceful God given gifts. I love the to give gifts. I have so much love to give. I once wondered why I was created in the fathers image of pure love. I am so filled with love that it drips all over and floods all surrounding ground around when I walk. Granny said I need a mop to go down the hall. that tickles me to this day yall. That's a whole heep of love. Bless my granny Lord! By your stripes we are healed. From her head to her heels do your will. You know what the deal is Jesus. I can no longer watch  her suffer. Yes it is my desire to keep her here. In tears I say again... your will.
My, my, my have you wiped away many of my tears. I thank you that you have turned all of my tears of sorrow to joy. I thank you that you have never left me even when I thought I was all alone. When my mother went home, when my father went home, when my God mother went home, when my granddad went home. You know what? that's quite a few home goings.
All I know is your word is true and you shall, will and have restored all that I thought I had lost. Halleluhah for the spirit realm.
Moving write along I would like to put some words on my husband. You are blessed mighty King! Your are exceedingly, abundantly, above all I could imagine or think. Ephesians 3:20. At this moment I would really like to elaborate on my imagination. How fortunate are we hubby that it goes far beyond words and typing......Tee hee hee. I long to get married to the soul which I was created for. That's you Lord. You shall forever dwell in him and our family for every generation to come. I'm done!!! Yall have a great one. Love, Peace and Hair Grease!

Glistening In Glory

" Calm Delight" That's the place I'm in, this very moment in my life.......... Thank God! I believe that's something I need to meditate on or write a song. lol....something there of. To reach a place of calm delight, I had to fight...." all my life I had to fight" lol. Honestly, I'm really nonviolent . I am definitely not confrontational. Life! life will confront you and make you fight. I don't mean physically. Our battle isn't against flesh and blood. etc. etc......What an awesome place of peace Im in. I realized any and every battle is already won." Delightfully Calm" I am every second of every minute of every hour. Positive power! Lord I just want to thank you for today and the manifestation of all that you have showed me. Amen, to you be the glory for this here story. Peace, love and joy to all who lay their eyes on this here.

On Goes The Show!

Hello family, Wild beauty here and booooyyyy do I have a lot to share. News of good cheer. I had the most blissful experience singing under the direction of Dr. Gregory  McPherson. Lord I thank you for my cousin Dr. Lynn Robinson.... I love Punkin so, father God I ask you to let blessings overflow in her life. Thank you for overflowing blessings in Dr. McPherson, his  daughter and his wife according to your word in Ephesians 3:20. Which you already done did. I just want to mention it again. Amen
So, about this past week experience. I'm a professional now thanks to God. I'm elated to meet the acquaintance of who I am. It feels freely refreshing. My wings have a tingling sensation. Running through my finger tips, toes to the soul of my being. Oh! How great it feels to be me.
 Hungry Greedy Gurl came up with a new recipe " Blackend Okra Salad" I'm going to share it with my followers in IG for sure. I believe I mentioned before that I'm going to have an Exhibit for all of my paintings. It will be called "Our Healing". I believe $ 1000 a seat should be sufficing. Lord let your glory rest on each canvas for it is with your excellence it is shared and was created. I am and forever shall be yours. I'm grateful for all you have done, doing and proving. You prove to me every second of every hour that you are who you say you are. The great I am!  Bless each child and governess  and parent of Elite Etiquette. In all thy ways you shall be acknowledged.... Singing....I'm ready,  even if ion get to go, reason why I stay on the road, gotta go, gotta go, gotta go. Amen for sho!" The show must go on!" said Mrs. Branson

Healing on display

Well we made it through the holiday. Praise God and there was no family dram. you can only imagine how it goes down in Chi-town. I really need this therapy. but I have no idea where to start......well I had a boyfriend for seven months and we broke it of on my birthday  after he stood me up, smh, I really had love for this fella lord, moving right along, Father I long for my husband. Its all in your hands. I give it to you but I would like to be with him. I've honestly only seen a glimpse of. I saw his eyes and they are as blue as the ocean. I'm just curious as to what he could look like because in all my years I've never seen a man with ocean blue eyes black, white, red or yellow. So, what kind of fella could this be? I long to be with. My Aunt in the Chi told me " I don't get out enough. How do I ever expect to find my love?" I'm like he needs to find me. Its evident that I failed at the search party thing. The word says the man that findeth a wife ,,,,,,,,,,,  I am officially out of hiding so ride sally ride. lol I'm just saying
Moving along to my artistry. I've painting my healing. I do apologize I have just sprung this up on my readers. It sprung up on me. I knew I was an artist as far as writing, singing, acting, dancing. Painting never crossed my mind. I dived all the way in and asked god for healing and prosperity, peace and serenity of each stroke of my rush and for all who sees him healing me be free. Wow what a wonderful experience and process I went through. A transition of greatness. Now look Jesus...... How in the world am I to market this. I pray that it is never misinterpreted. The Chrysalis collection and all its editions. Touring state to state, witness healing. Father I must give you prays because only you did this. you gave me the peace that I have. You gave me this love, joy, and prosperity according to Ephesians 3:20. So have your way in me thru me for you. Its my desire to bless the nations in abundance physically, emotionally, financially and most of all spiritually. So whoever you have lined up to help me accomplish these things bless them immediately. I receive, that's all for now I believe. Amen. Have a blessed day, morning or night. Know that God has it all under control. lehhh goooo!!

Introducing " Wild Beauty"

Wellllll family I'm back. I decided I just want to be myself today....its been a while since I've had my therapy.....And if you've been reading all of my therapy sessions, Congratulations! you are loved. AHHHhhhhh yess it feels so good to be back in my comfort zone. so much has gone onnnnnnn. I have like Three instagram pages, two facebooks, one snapchat, one periscope, I mean your girl has truly evolved. Come on somebody!!!! In my mother of the church voice. Yall its amazing. Once you become free, you want others to feel that same freedom.....Speaking of freedom makes me think of years ago when I was in college. I rewrote the national anthem.....I wonder where that notebook is? If I ever find it... now would be the time to sing it. I'm just saying. I had a great up bringing. I can honestly say I grew up in a multicultural neighborhood. God rest my parents souls. Thank you for the exposure. We played with the brown, white and indigo..........this subject is trying to give me a tidbit of anxiety. I rebuke it in the name of Jesus. lets pause for some Chamomile tea ughhhhh. Well, I can only find "sweet dreams" and its to early for me to go to sleep. I'm just gone let "Wild Beauty's Blog" touch on that subject for her session. This racism and inequality Shiii doesn't make sense......AYE! Wild Beauty. wait a minute!!! This therapy session is for TiMori Lynn. LOL. Soooo Family I don't believe I properly introduced Wild Beauty to you. She was born when I moved to California. The specific day I'm unsure of but I remember the moment. I was at Venice beach. I had on a....What color was that dress? Ah yes, I believe they call it mermaid. It was like a seaweed sky-blue green. Interesting. How fitting,come to think of it. My god-sister was sitting beside me. She had come to visit and give me some vibes of upliftment. I have her my phone and said " here take some pictures, while you sitting in your lounge chair". I walked out to the ocean, thinking of some poses. The sand started to feel wet between my toes, oh how I love that feeling. I looked out over the ocean. What a beautiful scene. As the sun began to melt away all negativity, the waves swept my ankles. God and I connected. I said "Have Me" "Have it all, I don't want it anymore." I can't carry it anymore!Look how far I've come to tell you." "I leave it all here." doubt, fear, abuse, feelings of abandonment, insecurities selfishness, Holy Fire!!! It is my destiny to be. Wash away the old me with the sand." "I am that I am. A brand new woman." " It is my heritage to stand proud and unafraid. I will face the world boldly and say. " This I have done, This we have done, This GOD has done!!!" Suddenly I realized my sister was sitting somewhere behind me and this was a photo shoot. I'm not sure if she even knows she captured that moment. I said all of that to introduce yall to Hungry Greedy Gurl, Wild Beauty. You'll have to checkout her blogs to experience the journey. Love, Peace and Blessings.

Life 4 Real: Free people ....free people

Life 4 Real: Free people ....free people: So today I'm feeling some type of way. Not sad or anything, slightly emotional I guess? I believe I miss the social freedom of living i...

Free people ....free people

So today I'm feeling some type of way. Not sad or anything, slightly emotional I guess? I believe I miss the social freedom of living in Cali........ Not that I feel that I am in bondage. I am truly free. At times being in the setting or location that I am in its hard for others to understand the full description of my artist career. I often find myself going into detail about what I, do where I'm going with my creativeness and how I plan on making a lifestyle out of it. Which is unnecessary, I've never really heard any one go into detail about being a lawyer or a doctor to prove that it is a legitimate career choice. Honestly I am 100% sure I did not choose to be a child of artistry. It chose me for sure. I have formed a certain attitude of gratitude when I look at so many around me who have conformed to the norm of society. I just thank God that even though I have been frowned upon by many for my mindset that the Lord continues to elevate me. Most people say you can be whatever you want to be but don't believe the words they say. At times society can be quite confusing. Words carelessly slung throughout a room.I am an Artist and that is what I tell people..... "Do you have benefits" They ask. I reply "yes"...They then reply " like health and dental"...I'm like " No, Mental and Spiritual" oh yeah " and Physical" I changed my whole lifestyle by embracing who I am. Now about the finances... "All I know is Jesus paid it all" LOL but if you would like to support go to timorilynn on intagram, or hungrygreedygurl. You can subscribe to my YouTube channel. Matter blahh blahh yall know..... I'm not really trying to make a plug in right now, I'm just venting. Like for real!! I refuse to let people with negative energy be around or influence me... I have so much love to give and share. The lord has blessed me to have peace that passes all understanding and if you don't have it look to the hills from which cometh your help. lol that really tickled me. I really just want people to be happy with who they are and where they are going. The vision, goals and dreams God has planted inside of you are not for everybody, friends, family,loved ones God gave it to you so don't let others opinions dictate how you live your life day to day. I like to call this a 'freedom state' state of mind..... Be free people! Keep yourself surrounded with positive energy. Free people....free people. I'm just saying. We are all made beautifully. I've embraced my beautiful, quirky, uniqueness and it feels great!!!!!BOOM! "In the face!!!" In my coming to America voice. Be blessed have a awesome, wonderful joy-filled prosperous day/life.

Interconnected

well done good and faithful blog readers. where shall I start with todays therapy? SO. I finished typing my book about 3 months ago and I still haven't finished reading it. Like, How do you read a book when your constantly writing one? I am half way through it though. I'm ........I believe I'm hungry. Yup! I need a snack. speaking on that, that is how #hungrygreedygurl came about. Yes! I know you don't spell Girl with a UR but I sometimes speak to myself and other in third person in my writings so yes TiMori a "Hungry Greedy Gurl-UR. Catch that.? The Lord actually had me to go thru all of my networking platforms today and look at how far I've come. Ohhh the Hunger!!! figuratively and literally. I have to get some chips or something. js. I just hate to pause and come back in a different mind frame. Words come out different when you feel empty. The sky looks different when your free. The heart sounds different when you feel rhythm in the beat. My dream can true the moment I believed. just saying.....to think when I first started this blog there was no such thing as snapchat and now it has become an easy way for me to record for my youtube channel ...................... so basically I took a 24hr lunch break from this entry. Forgive me. I just have so much that needs to be done. One thing that just so happens to be the same is that I'm hungry. LOL, SO. Anyway during my late afternoon meditation. I began to think about some points I focused on yesterday as far as my purpose goes. Yesterday I also did some traveling down memory lane as I introduced my snapchat family to my tumbler page and other things I have going on online . I saw some pictures where I look beautifully unhappy. I mean just thinking back. I was so miserable and no one even knew. I wasn't happy with where I was in life. I definitely wasn't happy in my relationship. I just knew I wanted more . I deserved more. I was more. BUT! during todays meditation God brought back to my memory when I was driving down the street leaving that dudes house, glad to get out! Coming around the curb. WHAT THA!!! Is that a baby in the middle of the road!? Oh my GOD! Jesus! Its a baby in the street Jesus, walking wobbly. Can't be! Immediately the silver bullet (my car) goes in park. I walk in front a good seven feet like " BABY! Where are you going? Where is your mommy?" She clasp all of her lil fingers around my one holding on for dear life, as if to say you saved me. In that moment we connected and for those hour long seconds she was my child. My heart cried out for my baby as we walked back to the car and all the thoughts of what could have , should've, would've happened. Talk about walking in your calling. My child and I with thick snot running down her nose . I look down and say baby what's your name? where is your house? As we walked pass my car. I pointed "Is this your house? I knew she was to young to answer, probably about one and a half. In my head I'm thinking like "what the hell?" Who's baby is this? At the same time trying to observe some type of reaction from the lil one...this is a big neighborhood to roam. finally we start to walk back and I say to myself. Jesus! about 3 houses away from my car I pick her up. no telling how far she had walked and a car pulls in front of us up in to a drive way and she mumbled a few words. I point to the car and say is that your mommy? Two teenagers get out the back and a grandmother hops out of the driver seat. calling the little girls name. I say is this your baby? She was walking down the street. the grandma said " Thank you so much! I'm her grandmother." "I told her mother we were not going to be here and she just left the baby outside." I reluctantly handed her over. suddenly remembering she wasn't my child. ..and walked back to my car praying like lord please bless my baby. She could have died today..... finishing up my meditation with God and I's conversation, on purpose. TiMori, "Yes that was a trying time in your life but you are, were and always have been full of great life changing purpose." "I specifically aligned you for that moment for that time be a parent to my child."........ and that memory was just a small example of many. Breathe in........You are perfect just the way you are.....Breathe out all is well and will be well.. meditation brought to a close. Man I felt so great after my meditation today. I felt God in the silence. Tears ran down the corner of my eyes as I thought about that child. I couldn't help but have tears of praise and joy. I serve a God so great that he would allow me to see beyond flesh in comparison with purpose and successfulness. I'm living it and have been for many years. amen to be continued....