Interconnected

well done good and faithful blog readers. where shall I start with todays therapy? SO. I finished typing my book about 3 months ago and I still haven't finished reading it. Like, How do you read a book when your constantly writing one? I am half way through it though. I'm ........I believe I'm hungry. Yup! I need a snack. speaking on that, that is how #hungrygreedygurl came about. Yes! I know you don't spell Girl with a UR but I sometimes speak to myself and other in third person in my writings so yes TiMori a "Hungry Greedy Gurl-UR. Catch that.? The Lord actually had me to go thru all of my networking platforms today and look at how far I've come. Ohhh the Hunger!!! figuratively and literally. I have to get some chips or something. js. I just hate to pause and come back in a different mind frame. Words come out different when you feel empty. The sky looks different when your free. The heart sounds different when you feel rhythm in the beat. My dream can true the moment I believed. just saying.....to think when I first started this blog there was no such thing as snapchat and now it has become an easy way for me to record for my youtube channel ...................... so basically I took a 24hr lunch break from this entry. Forgive me. I just have so much that needs to be done. One thing that just so happens to be the same is that I'm hungry. LOL, SO. Anyway during my late afternoon meditation. I began to think about some points I focused on yesterday as far as my purpose goes. Yesterday I also did some traveling down memory lane as I introduced my snapchat family to my tumbler page and other things I have going on online . I saw some pictures where I look beautifully unhappy. I mean just thinking back. I was so miserable and no one even knew. I wasn't happy with where I was in life. I definitely wasn't happy in my relationship. I just knew I wanted more . I deserved more. I was more. BUT! during todays meditation God brought back to my memory when I was driving down the street leaving that dudes house, glad to get out! Coming around the curb. WHAT THA!!! Is that a baby in the middle of the road!? Oh my GOD! Jesus! Its a baby in the street Jesus, walking wobbly. Can't be! Immediately the silver bullet (my car) goes in park. I walk in front a good seven feet like " BABY! Where are you going? Where is your mommy?" She clasp all of her lil fingers around my one holding on for dear life, as if to say you saved me. In that moment we connected and for those hour long seconds she was my child. My heart cried out for my baby as we walked back to the car and all the thoughts of what could have , should've, would've happened. Talk about walking in your calling. My child and I with thick snot running down her nose . I look down and say baby what's your name? where is your house? As we walked pass my car. I pointed "Is this your house? I knew she was to young to answer, probably about one and a half. In my head I'm thinking like "what the hell?" Who's baby is this? At the same time trying to observe some type of reaction from the lil one...this is a big neighborhood to roam. finally we start to walk back and I say to myself. Jesus! about 3 houses away from my car I pick her up. no telling how far she had walked and a car pulls in front of us up in to a drive way and she mumbled a few words. I point to the car and say is that your mommy? Two teenagers get out the back and a grandmother hops out of the driver seat. calling the little girls name. I say is this your baby? She was walking down the street. the grandma said " Thank you so much! I'm her grandmother." "I told her mother we were not going to be here and she just left the baby outside." I reluctantly handed her over. suddenly remembering she wasn't my child. ..and walked back to my car praying like lord please bless my baby. She could have died today..... finishing up my meditation with God and I's conversation, on purpose. TiMori, "Yes that was a trying time in your life but you are, were and always have been full of great life changing purpose." "I specifically aligned you for that moment for that time be a parent to my child."........ and that memory was just a small example of many. Breathe in........You are perfect just the way you are.....Breathe out all is well and will be well.. meditation brought to a close. Man I felt so great after my meditation today. I felt God in the silence. Tears ran down the corner of my eyes as I thought about that child. I couldn't help but have tears of praise and joy. I serve a God so great that he would allow me to see beyond flesh in comparison with purpose and successfulness. I'm living it and have been for many years. amen to be continued....