Its been so long I almost feel like a stranger to my own blog, therapy session/

this angel

OKk I'm back quick this time. thoughts running through my mind...... Why didn't I ask God to show me the angel again?????annnd what I did see shook me so I haven't felt the need to ask again. I got stuck for a second...thinking about "this Angel" OMG what if I start calling my angel by its name. what if its sname is the name God gave me. MAAAAAAaaaaannnnnn yall should see my face.yall! if...when I call this angel by the name God gave me and tell it what to do according to God and mine contract and Ephesians 3:20................ I had to leave for a specific prayer moment. I'm so tickled with joy at the moment. God you are so awesome!!!! Thank you . I recieve it all with grace, love and peace.

Name em ( )

Day 9 IMm alive !!!!singing I'm taking my freedom! I've taken my freedom. I got joy unspeakaable.... Yall God has given me a concept for a new series. " My angel and me, I don't really mind sharing because its not that many of your reading this at the moment soooo. I was thinking " I wonder what my angels name is? or what shall I name em/the none gender creation. so here I am thinking whats my angel name or what shall I call it and I suddenly began to remember an encounter I had with God. He rushed in the room and appered with a flash of lightining from the window, I tried to get out the bed and fell out of it like a paraplegic. I ended up with my face down on the floor into my folded arms. I could only see out of my peripheral and could not raise my head at all. I just laid there and God was just sitting there indian style with time , space, width and perception all in one because in his presence there is non. He talked to me for a long time but the only thing I remeber hearing was when he was leaving. I was in awe cause he looked like lightning with the undertones of a bubble. He turned around and said Oh yeah! name him { to be shared during manifestation}, I remeber thinking to myself.... How do I spell that? what does it mean? Well I guess that means I'll have a son for sure. So, that memory came to as I'm typing and thinking about my angel. But what if God gave me that name for my angel all those years ago for this very moment hmmmmmm. He did say name him so that is very gender specific. I think I'm gonna have to pray about it. I bet my angel laughs at me alot. I'm sure other angels wish there person was me. Yall wanna Know something?. I remember exactly where I was when I asked God to show me my angel. I remember it was like thin air started to ripp away and! it! was! huge!!! I squeezed my eyes real tight and repeatedly said " thats okay Lord I don't want to see! thats ok!" it disapeared instantly but I never forgot it. I've yet to ask to see it again. seeing the bottom of it was good enough, that check mark for the presence of angels is Good enough for me. Ask my cousin Quala about it she can vouch for me. Love peace and hairgrease.

Flower Power

Thank you Lord for this beautiful blessed day. This is the day that you have made and Im always gonna rejoice and be glad in it. Im thankful for so many things this morning Lord . 5:36 am. Im on day 7 of Quarantining with the family and about day 4 it hit me ! what if this is my last 14days!!!!OMG I better do something big! everyday! .........big out of the ordinary, something spectacular .....I decided to just be myself ! I've been wanting to tell young girls something. A secret if you will. There is so much power in holding on to the flower...singing there is power in the name of Jesus. but thats not the secret . I wished I would've waited to have sex. I remember I went to a mother daughter retreat when I was about 12 with my mom and we made promises to wait until married. we got a lil neclace with a heart on it. One of my older, good friends shared her personal story... I started reminising. back to the present. If my mother was still alive I would ask her did you know I wasn't gonna wait. I have so many diffrent emotions at the moment. BOTTOM LINE. If you have played in the lions den. and you want your power back! don't tame the mane! let that shit grow. Trust me it will keep you. What are you saying Amour Lynn? People ! Im saying exactly what I said. Young girls, middle age women and old ladies. I'm just telling my truth and some of yalls too. Single people want to act like ist so easy to practice celibacy or abstinence. Granted it not hard or a difficult task but it can be quit easy to be wrapped in sensual false sense of love .....sense of love with emphasis, not to say love is not involved the sense of it truly is or was at least for me. trust me I know what I'm saying. I'm the only person I know not having sex. ....pondering this thought for a minute.....what does that mean? 2chains song I'm different is on repeat in my head now. I"m different yeah I'm different! pulled up to the scene with my roof missin. Truth is I want my husband. God do a quick work. Welp ! I done told these people, I let the hair grow to keep me out of trouble. My single friends and family laugh about it but at the same time say " dannnggg it makes so much sense." and it does. men don't know how much we ladies go through and aint no body trying to.....basically even if I'm tempted. I got a way out... One more thing my mother told me when I was 14, walking with her in thehospital. "Never let A Man Make A Fool Out Of You".

I have so many wonderful emotions...... SOmeething about the name Jesus WHaaauuhhh....You know why? it just feels good tobe alive. All of it has manifested. I can feel it I can see it. I've even started writing in rhymes again. Unintentionally but intentionally because of the power that be within me. when I tell yall, Ya girl brand new. Baby! Your gift will make room for you. It will. I'm literally making myself sit still to write yall this here becasue God has worked so fast. I dont know what to expect.I suspect I better go for a walk so God and I can talk......I'm gone get back to yall. Love Peace and Hair grease.

Blessed in the city, blessed in the field, God is real.
. I am Amour Lynn. I just wanted to change up my welcome a bit.....shoulder shrugging. What yall think? ....................................Trying to think " When was the last time I asked for an opinion?". On to the next matter of business. ......Wait what am I saying! This is not business.  This is familia therapy with a stage and microphone." I'm back home "in the tone of my cousin JaneP song. .....cause I'm on, cause I'm on. Yall already know I'm singing the song If you're just now tuning in welcome. A moment of affirmation. I am a Queen who has served many. Many have taken advantage of me as I myself became a domestic employee. but I count it as a blessing and a testing that all mighty God is preparing me to dwell in royalty, for loving ...not man but his soul loyally. SO basically ......Love is.... Who is he?

You met who!?

Its me yall and I have more to talk about than any of you who join my therapy sessions could ever  imagine. I mean ... I guess I'll start with where I am currently. Macon in the library, which reminds me not to burst out in tears as I think of what has transpired the past couple of months. I've been telling myself write about it, write about.....but the bynadryl turns the truth cloudy which stops the rain that continuously falls from my sky of my eyes as I try to cope with my reality that..... Amour Lynn! You have been elevated and its painful. Ohh my ! Sooo yes my name is Amour Lynn. My bad friends It's just been such a long time since I've been on here . I'm almost sure you no longer know who I am. I'm now who I always longed to be. A woman of true virtuosity. A virtuous woman. Proverbs 31, Who can find a virtuous woman? Her riches are far greater than rubies. The word "WHO " has such great importance at this level in my life. I'm sitting here trying to figure out how to write and express the beauty with out the pain ............ How at the state I'm in , which is also a blessing. Like pruning. No lie this is the best library  location I've every been in ......It was time to go so I put this session on pause for a few days, like a week and now Im back ! this time sitting at the dinning room table on a Mac. How bout that. Its mine for the moment and I always wanted one but enough about the physical. Church this morning was life changing. "Intentional" was the subject One Love and I had several conversations about that this pass week . Here God goes again with the confirmation comedy. lol I'm currently residing in a place of refuge. I'm beyond blessed to be who I am and where I am. The people and things I came across, the spiritual warfare I encountered my last trip to California. I just want to say thank you God for creating this conquering Lioness Amour Lynn. Aye, fam y'all won't believeeee! I met a real witch and it was nothing like I would've imagined. First of all I  hadn't met or had a conversation with a witch before. I'd only seen them with my eyes of discernment. This was different fam. We were living at the same air bnb with an emaculate view of the mountains. No cell phone service.... so many details to this situation y'all I should just start a whole new blog called "The Angel and the Witch" or write a television series.  thats it T.V. It tickles me when I think back because she looked and acted like a  beautiful  6foot friendly elf .........Praise pause. God I want to give you praise Jesus for creating me and covering me. Thank you for allowing me to be a witness to that girl to walk and live in your glory! Thank you for allowing me to share my story and all you've done for me in the midst of my struggle. ONE TOUCH LORD. ONE WORD! can change a life as these tears fill my eyes, I think about the pain and strain that took me to that moment when I met that young lady. Y'all I don't know where she is today but I know what God did and said.....He reigns! Who is your neighbor? Love thy......... is coming to me clearly in this moment because I was never once afraid of the girl when she revealed to me who she was. It still doesn't make sense and sounds crazy when I say it. " I met a witch in the mountains" lol wait till y'all read this series....you will get to see it here first. Thank y'all for joining therapy with me. I'm easing back into it. A lot went on while I was gone. I constantly hear God saying "Be Patient" so here I am..... y'all be patient destiny has manifested.