be right back.

Ok sooo I went to another audition and another no go this time....... but guess whatttt this time I didn't cry.......cause I new i was there for a reason. you know?  Like if the judges pick me or not.... Dang I gotta run yall but I promise I will come back .....Be Blessed family.....

hello family.......I stayed up until 4:00 am. which is unusual for my new sleeping pattern......but normal for my old one. I remember I would stay up sometimes to 6am. around 2 am is when I get my best writing done. My grandma always say ain't nothing open after 2 but legs...lol around 2 my mental juices get to flowing.....strangely I didn't write anything this morning. I was just laying looking at the ceiling...thinking. Trying to balance it all out.  I had a conversation yesterday where I stated " Its always good to have a plan even if the plan doesn't work, its still apart of the plan"...... note to self if your plan two didn't fail ...then you wouldn't be on the right plan one. God has the number one plan....... but any way I've been meaning to talk about my dream about spiders I mentioned a few entries ago... I dreamed about them again since that entry.  I dreamed I was laying on the ground and baby spiders where falling out of the sky each hanging from a string..... about to get on me... all over me. .... and whats so crazy is since that dream I've walked outta the house at least four or five times and a spider was in my car or on my car. Spiders are a sign of financial blessing.....hey well Lord I'm ready open up the windows of heaven. It just hit me that's what it was about.  Lord I thank you for blessing me in order to be a blessing...... Amen.

I got my mojo back!!!!!......

Mannnnnnnnnn I know its been a minute family and again I apologize.....as I was sitting here thinking about what to write. I began to reflect on my life....."im thinking to self" and self said "huh?" "what the heck are you gone write about in all this Pan- duh- mo-ne-um.....of coarse thats not how you spell it sooooooo I just looked it up..................Pandemonium.....definition "a place of uproar and chaos" ....... see the word pandemonium just came to me. and I used it in that sentence not knowing the true meaning. but knowing what it meant ..... " I hope that makes sense........Lord I bless your holy name , I praise your holy name! you deserve all the honor and the praise,,,,,, All my fake ones be quiet...... Now all my real ones make noise, make noise make noise....."Fat Man scoop in my head" LMBO " Randomocity" Ok now the pandemonium is gone......now to my MoJo ! Im about to write a song...... Called Pandemonium........oooooooooooooooooo     ooooooo thank ya Jesus..... My juices is flowin.....I gotta go write this  pesong......poem or song. don't be laughing at me yall. Love yall
. ................................random thought I wish I could make it to my big sis event tommorow. Lord I gotta work on this communication.....but hey it takes two to tango...... I'm just sayin YO! " .......OK so why did I just put my hands up like a uptown thug..... lmbo off. Big sis much love......


Awwhhh man I almost forgot to post a song........yes Im a nerdy , GOD loving, Praying, thug.... " Well something like it ... I mean something like a thug" In my Dae Dae voice, from the movie Next Friday.

Guess What???

good afternoon fam.....Im really feeling Syleena Johnson this morning. heyyyyyyy 3 snaps up 3 snaps down!!! but any way I'm gone pick up where I left off yesterday....... "When God touched me" My lil sister and I were living in an apartment. I was living life to the fullest or so I thought. It was about 12 o'clock and I was headed to bed. I was trying to go to sleep and God was trying to talk to me.......honestly I was ignoring....father I'm sleepy....silly me. So... I could feel his presence in  the room but my back was turned. and then a touch......I lost my breath all of a sudden and I felt a slight nudge.... I thought I was about to die. I couldn't move. I couldn't cry, just stiff and still. God replied " How dare you act like I haven't done anything for you and not tell people what I brought you thru...... I jumped straight outta bed and began to praise and pray. I mean the whole nine....speaking in tongues and all. I cried and praised and prayed and praised and cried.....all night long and all morning. My sis came in the room and was like MORI!!!!! WHATS WRONG!!!??? but I couldn't talk. Only words outta my mouth praise and tounges. At the moment it was pretty scary yall.....I mean he literally nudged me and this is only the beginning .....after staying up all morning I got in my car and started to take the drive from Tuscaloosa to home....Prattville and on the back road 82.....I saw a man sitting on the bank... Something told me to turn around and I did. I pulled up and it was a shaggy looking white man.... I rolled down my window and said " Are you ok?" He replied "NO" of coarse I said "Whats wrong?" He said " Well....I'm just sitting here waiting to jump in front of a big semi truck to run me over" Pause for a moment.........uhhhhhhhh "Whats your name?"  "TiM but they call me T Bone" " Ok T Bone we bout to pray" We prayed and I told him it will be okay. He went on his way and I continued my journey......needless to say I got right into prattville and ran outta gas.....smh. without a dollar in my pocket. I walked a good half a mile to the pay phone called my uncle, He picked me up and  I told him all that had went on......with more detail than I'm giving yall....but any way thats what happened when God touched me. and I haven't been the same since.... I always let it be known what he's done for me and try to walk in his purpose daily..... some say it was my call to preaching.......thats not the only way I can tell the world my story and share his glory....... Im just sayin. but if it is or was so be it.......I just don't see it....but hey what do I know about Gods Master plan.......I"ll just continue to share the truth with this pen.......Let me here the church say Amen......... I am killing my self laughin. I love yall be blessed!!!

Well fam Saturday didn't go the way I expected.....I auditioned for THE VOICE again..... I woke up Saturday morning 5:30 am and started on my 3hr drive to Atlanta. My aunt Mary came along for the ride. I was so sleepy I had to stop and get a five hour energy drink. So we get there, 10 dollar parking which was pretty cheap, walked up hill a mile to the line. I get to the front and realize my I.D. was in the car..................................ugh WHYYYYYYYYYYyyyyyyyyyyy!!!!!! "Lord have you seen these thighs" Aunt Mary said " you better run and go get it"  As I began speed walking I started reminiscing on my Prattville Panther track days, when my dad Timothy Robinson made me keep running....even tho it wasn't in me.....to think about it now is pretty funny! but any way I made it back just in time. Auntie wished me luck and remained outside the building. I stood in line another 7 to 5 hours. finally my group of 10 got to our audition room. I walk to my seat, look at the judge and think to myself " Not you again" the same lady I had last year. Well I'm gone give it all I got again...and I did auditionie num 7..is that a word??? lol well singer number 7. then went 8,9 and ten. she dismissed all but 3. I was one of the dismisies....is that a word LMAO... any way just like last time. Every one in my audition group began to compliment me and wonder why I wasn't picked...as if I had an answer...I felt a little water trying to gather in my eyes then I said to self..." YOU Betta NOT Cry!! Suck it up! I was stopped by an older man who auditioned with me and he gave me his card and told me "he was a producer who does ever thing, mixing, mastering.... I shook his hand and said "I knew God sent me here for a reason"..... I walked with confidence and hips of intimidation all the way to the car..... How I hated to tell Mary about another rejection and boy was she in shock......to be honest I was just glad to take off my shoes and socks and get outta that parking garage. and as soon as we pulled out and pulled off.... My feet blew up!!! LOL Matter of fact they still swole. but any way all the way home I drove..... got in the house took a quick nap. woke up and went to chill and celebrate with my Mafio fam. Went to the crib with my man and then it happened......I broke down. I got on my knees and began to weep....just God and me! No judging. I started thinking about when he literally touch me. that's a whole nother story that I'll probably share later on this evening. I just wanted to tell my fam about my weekend.....Be blessed and know that mans No could be GODs Yes..... I'm just sayin...... I love Lyfe Jennings. I can't wait to fix up my old school...

Sometimes I just wanna listen

Hello family ........I am counting down the days???? Saturday is almost here??? Why you say? I let you know Monday. but any way. I've been feeling Ceelo Green.... today.... Sometimes. I dreamed about spiders again last night......believe it or not that's a good thing. Everyday I find out more and more about myself. I'm trying to concentrate on writing but I'm listening to this song and its speaking such truth............Sometimes I just wanna listen..... Today just listen. I have all these distractions.......love yall.
.......................................................................................I thought about I knew blog I wanna start called WEEPING WOMEN.......I'll explain in more detail when I get it together but its going to be a place where praying, weeping, just plain ole living women can express themselves freely.... Make sure you listen to Ceelo Green....

Well family! Its time for an update. I just left a job interview. It went very well. I am claiming it in Jesus name...........Oh yeah I forgot to tell yall I currently have a job. I've only been working there 2weeks .... LOL so let me tell u about the past two weeks..............."wrote a song about it , wanna hear it, here it goes"lol "In living color" Day one in my competitive sales position... the manager didn't show up for my two hours of training. so another girl showed me how to work their ancient cash register......"sigh and rolled eyes". So here am I standing in the mall in front of some store that sells shoes.... running 4 booths, selling dresses at one booth,rings at the other, braclets in the middle and finally sunglasses too. My four hours of training quickly changed from two. and to the companies surprise I made more sales than there employees who gross the highest weekly..................................................."In 4 self trained hours"  do you hear me!!!   Well lets get to the enemy.   My second day, the top saleswoman walked up to me and said..." Hello I'm a psychic" I wasn't surprised . I just looked her dead in her eyes and said I have a gift TOO.....BOOM!! LOL I think to myself. "I bet that surprised you". She replied ohhhh your a psyhic too..........NOOooo I have a gift, that I use wisely..."never revealing the gifts I have up on me"........and the things that God was showing. I was internally giggling as she was trying to read me. She stated that the glow and the ora I have shining around me was amazing......... I said to self yeah hefa thats that hedge of protection around me...   On to my next work day. she was there smiling and waiting. My sales started booming. as I ring up a customer. She attacks ....steps up to my personal space, not in but too close to my face and yells and said I'm stealing her customers......................." Holy spirit come quick cause I'm bout turkey, roast beef, HAM and slap this B5#6h....... I open my mouth so quick " You betta step tha ....f#..........take a breath..........BACK!" You betta step back LADY and recognize where u at!!! Now Imma holla at you about dat when I finish with my customers.She turned around and said F#ck It! I calmly rang them up while boiling on the inside. After finishing all my buyers. I'm standing at my register and look down to her booth and think to self I should go down there and spit FIRE== but the spirit wouldn't let me move. " Stand still and know that I am GOD" 3 minutes went by and she came to me and apologized to my surprise. All I said was" hunny you just don't know your life flashed before your eyes."... Omega George used to sing this song in church " Don't let him ride cause he might wanna drive!" Randomocity.. I'm Laughing on the inside.....

I get home and got a call to interview for another job.... See the enemy will recognize you and try to be in a disguise. He'll sit back and wait right till you bout to make it and attack... but you have to stand still and know there is a GOD! just wait a lil while. He'll fight all your battles. The enemy knows the gifts and blessings God has placed up on me and he'll try any thing to stop me and he won't just be using that woman. Now to my word that I stand on every mornin.......................Ephesians 3:20  Now unto he who is able to do exceedingly abundantly, above all I can ask or think according to the power that worketh within me!!!!! Mathew 21:21 If you have faith and doubt not, you will not only do what was done to the fig tree, but also if you say to this mountain, Be removed and cast into the sea...IT SHALL BE DONE!! AMEN!

Now family, Do you know the power that you posses???? Life is a test. Be Blessed! Its Friday and we made it thru!